Well, just when I thought my life was getting back to “normal” I injured my lower back this time! I have had two weeks of pain, excruciating during the first week, and am still using a walker. Needless to say, this has compromised my ability to work on my project. I am trying to find a good message in all this. I am improving, slowly. Maybe this is a wake-up call to take out some time for myself. Who knows. More will be revealed! Thank you to those who stop by to review previous posts.
I was nominated for a Sunshine Award and have chosen to just answer the questions posed to me instead of making my own nominations. I don’t know 10 people who blog that aren’t already nominated. I suppose we could just go round and round with different questions…. Anyway, here goes.
1. What pivotal event in your life changed you for the better? Taking care of my husband as he battled cancer. I was amazed at how strong I could be for both of us.
The last couple of days give me hope. I have been improving in spite of waiting for tests. I am in less pain and able to walk some without the walker. I finally got an appointment for an MRI… on November 1! Wonder how much more I will have improved by then. I am so anxious to get back to normal. Working, cooking, walking… the list goes on.
Today is a sunny day. I got good sleep last night and was surprised to find that I can walk a little better! I am encouraged that I am getting better. My MRI is scheduled for Nov.1… really? I will probably be healed by then. Ah well, I just will have to go with the flow.
I wish I could say that my back problem is a thing of the past. Such is not the case. Pain is such an all-consuming, life-eroding presence in my life. It is not well controlled. Waiting for approval for an MRI and PT appointment is, literally, agony. Because I am not improving any more, I am worried that irreparable nerve damage is occurring.
I hate being dependent. I hate the way my pain makes me short-tempered and crabby and depressed. I hate that I can’t be in my studio working. Will I have this pain forever? Will I be disabled? Can’t I just grin and bear it making the best of a bad situation? No. Today is crap. Maybe I will feel better about it all tomorrow. One can only hope.
Before I injured my back, I made a piece for the Cloth Paper Scissors “Mixed-Media Stitch” challenge. I found out yesterday that I am one of the finalists.! I will send in my entry and, hopefully will be included in an upcoming issue of CPS magazine. This really was an uplifting piece of news. This piece represents the healing I have been doing over the past year. I am not finished yet, but my heart is healing. I used a quilted practice piece, folded tea bags, embroidery, a gold Lumiere paint wash and a cardboard heart with glued-on eggshells colored with Adirondack Alcohol Inks. the twig is coriander painted red. I enjoyed creating this piece and look forward to doing more eggshell mosaic art pieces.
August 1 marked the date that my husband passed away last year. I can’t believe that it has been that long. I still miss him so much! It is getting easier to think of him without getting really down. In the days leading up to the first, I did have some flashbacks. Mostly, though I remember the good things that we shared. I suppose that this next year will be easier still.
On another note, I am getting back into my studio working on client projects once again. Having my own brush with a little bit of cancer has galvanized my desire to give my art a greater part in my life. I believe that it is possible to do both my business and my art. That is the plan anyway.
I am so seriously behind on my weekly words it’s not funny. Hope to catch up with that soon.
Right now, I have some back trouble that needs to be resolved for me to be fully engaged in my life. I just hope that it won’t be something that is chronic and unfixable. That would really be a bummer. So, that’s it for now… time to ice.